okay..here we go.

Ever feel like you are on the cusp of something crazy...but in some wierd way its good? Well I am feeling that way right now.
I have decided..at the ripe age of 24 that I am going back to college to pursue my dream of creating textiles in the Japanese roketsu-zome tradition. It may be odd..( and hopefully not rude) that this terrible hellacious disaster in Japan makes me only want to be back in Japan more. I have had an awful feeling sitting in the back of my mind's stomach since it happened and I don't think it is going to go away any time soon.
I have always been at odds with college. I think I can sucessfully blame that on my highschool because from day one in eigth grade I had it shoved down my throat that I would essentially be nothing in life unless I went to a 4 year in-state university. I found it ridiculous to drop 25K+ on something I was not even sure about. But I realize now in order to even attempt going after this dream I need the teaching and most importantly the connections that colleges can give. I have found ( rather miraculously) a Fiber Arts program that focuses more on art than general education classes ( at most there is one gen ed class per semester) that is near my home town. My major is going to be Fiber Arts with a minor in Japanese Culture. I can't act like this is all going to work out and that I will finish my degree and suddenly be invited to Japan and design for the rest of my life, thats crazy and naive to think that. I already have a few nay-sayers with this..but I feel like this is something I just have to do. If anything if none of this works out I can open up a screen printing shop or work for one at least. Got to try at least though.

So..hold on ya'll..cause here I go.